a tribute for gandma

I dropped a tears everytime i remember a promise before i left ''no matter what i will go back''..

Our family expecting everybody to come wherever they from, except me! i like it or not i have to stay.. unfortunately i'm here away from them thousand of miles a way.

Next year, on her 94th birthday we planned to double the budget, the visitors, the activities and more.. Even 4x than what we expect a year before..


3 years AGO, since we decided to celebrate her yearly colossal birthday party. Sponsored by my parents, family and me, inviting closely thousand of people (even more) from different places, held at her very huge land(where grandchildrens would have a piece of it). A day until dawn of celebrating a big fiesta, with full of food, activities, and craziness. A day to dance,to laugh for success and happiness.



Unawaitedly was my aunt 54th birthday Aug. 3, 2008, i couldn't sleep it might be my unexplained excitement or stress. Early in the morning i greeted her, we mocked on the phone, giggling and laughing, same time we received an international text message from my sister asking to call her. We rang her at home and she was speechless to say any word, finally she mentioned that lola was awake all night long calling those people who is very close to her....later she said ''lola rested!", we did not catched the message, then she weeped.. In the midst of our laughter it turned out to burst a very loud groan........ my gandma rested, she will be rested forever..

The news shocked us, we are waiting the time to say goodbye but we did not prepare to hear it very early.. We love her, we are very close to her, she was so kind, and she offered her life by helping people, she has everything...

My grievous part is for not seeing her, not on her last moment in this world..

All of my families are there, but me, stuck in this unkind place, a place does not care to anybody, a place won't allow me to go back no matter how important she is to me..( I'm sorry lola, forgive me for not keeping my promise)..


Now, i decided to finish this year here, i will go back to make a life there again to stay close to them(families and friends), to keep my promise for them, to live near for better or for worst as a family.. i would never let this thing happen again, for you lola...

For you, we would continue to do what you started, to feed and to help the people who needed your help through us.. WE LOVE YOU LOLA, YOU'RE THE BEST!!!