longing for nothing

since thursday night, i been searching for something, something that i could not figure out what..

something is missing, something that hurts so bad that everytime i remember i am grieving.. so painful that nothing could heal..

if i would have a chance to see what will happen after i would have prepare something..

so sad, i feel so bad...

starting that day i'm always up in my bed, i dont know why.. this might because i am far from my family or might because of somebody, somebody whom very special to me, however apparently had gone..